Saturday, September 29, 2012


That's how I feel right now. Me and Duke are heading home in less than one month. Yes, it's exciting. But it is also making me sad. I love it here. And I am stressed. Life is stressful. I am 24 years old. Why is it so hard for me to figure out what I want to do for my career? And is your career even really as important as everyone makes it out to be? Yes, I obviously know having a good job is important. I have habits. Horseback riding is really flipping expensive. So I need a good job to do the things I love, right?

Can someone please hire me as their personal butler? Because I swear, keeping a house is the only thing I am good at.

Well, that's not true. I'm a darn good vet assistant. But, that is not what I want to do forever. Picking up heavy dogs all day. Seeing animals sick and hurt. Getting bit and scratched. It takes a toll on a person. I'd like the work at the zoo, but isn't that basically the same thing? Ugh.

This is one of those nights where I feel lonely. Duke has his friends over and they are having "dude talk." My neighbors are antisocial. And I need some girl time. Guess I'll hug my dog. Ha. And watch Aladdin.

I feel like someone should just tell me what to do with my life. And I'll do it. Whatever it is. I just want to know what I'm supposed to do.

Whiny and dramatic post over. Sorry about that.


  1. I loved reading this (and your comment on my post). It is SO hard to figure out what to "be" for the rest of your life! I am soo with you on the wanting to be a professional homemaker! I KNOW how to do that, and love it! But, we have bills that must be paid. lol I honestly think that the world drills in our heads this idea that you have to have some perfect "dream" job in order to be successful and happy. It's too much pressure! I wish I could give you some advice, but I am just here to tell you that yes, there are other people going through the same exact thing, feeling the same way. Everything will be okay. :)

    1. This definitely made me smile. Thanks a million.